What a difference two weeks has made in my life!
I am feeling like my old self again.
I am feeling more energetic.
I am feeling calmer.
I am feeling more patient.
I am feeling so much happier.
I am loving on my children much more.
They are so much happier.
I know in the past few months, maybe more, my children have suffered from my feeling down. They didn't get as many hugs or cuddles as they wanted. I pushed them away, especially my older girls. I was down and I didn't want them around. I was sad Brayden wasn't going to be my baby anymore instead of being happy that I was going to have a new baby. I was down on life, and my kids suffered.
I know that.
I am not proud of that.
Now is my time to change it, now is my time to love being a mom again.
We laugh more, we hug more, we cuddle more, we love more.
I am not saying pills will work for everyone or that taking something is the way to go for everyone, but taking an anti-depressant has changed my life. It is helping me so much more than I ever thought I needed. I can feel it and I know my kids can feel it. Our house has changed for the better.
I only wish I would have spoken up sooner. I tried not to talk about my feelings, and when I did, what I was feeling, I felt, got pushed aside.
For now though, I am happy. Which feels amazing!